Day 55: Honesty is The Best Policy

Well it's 11 o'clock at night and I am a 1/4 way through a bottle of vodka. Don't worry it is not as bad as you think. There have been things going on in the background that directly affect my mission. My wife has decided that she wants to separate. Normally under these conditions I would sit in front of the fridge and eat until me feelings were numb. I just can't do it. I have worked so hard to be better than that. Maybe I am making a mistake by declaring this on my blog, but I don't care. These are the trials of life and they directly affect my life and my mission.

It was not my idea to separate. I respect my wife. I am very sad that we can't work things out. I don't hate her or have bad feelings for her. I still love her. I am just sad for us. I am strong and I am going to make it through this. I am not looking for pity or excuses. I am looking for inner strength. I am a fighter. I will manage!

I had a good workout today. I managed to jog for 10 minutes straight at an 8% incline. That makes me super proud. When I started this mission 55 days ago I would have never even imagined that I could run or even stay on this mission.

I am on the road to recovery. Not only physically but mentally as well. For all of you that fear I am going to "fall off the wagon" don't worry, I am stronger that that now. I am a fighter and I will not quit!

Today's Workout Stats
Time: 34 minutes
Speed:
.....2.0 mph for 4 minutes (warm up/cool down)
.....3.0 mph for 20 minutes (Brisk walk)
.....3.5 mph for 10 minutes (Jogging)
Incline: 8%

Today's Meals:

Breakfast : None (I slept in. Leave me alone)

Lunch
Miso Soup
Sushi (tuna, salmon and cucumber roll)

Dinner
2 cups coleslaw
1 bun with cheese
1 cheese sandwich
3 Vodka and diet cokes (get off my back. I am a little stressed)

Today was a pretty good day considering what i am going through. If I want to lose any weight for my Sunday weigh in day. I am going to have to stop eating lager and unhealthy meals at night. I should be eating better meal in the morning. I know what I have to do. At least I am still working out to offset my bad eating at night.

As always I will keep you posted.